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Saturday, May 17th, 2008
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1:09 am - pick
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so that's it, huh?
i felt so...odd going through my last few classes. at least for a little while. ironic that the only paper i really say "fuck it" and pull out of my ass was the very last one. the pimps and hoes mass battle at the showcase was a riot, and making rice balls for the asian movement final was fun. felt ill right before senior ceremony. what were they going to say about us? about me?! what the heck was happening on that stage that the alumni dude designed? is it really on youtube? wonder if anyone knew where my entrance music was from. maybe one person.
i finally introduced my family to robyn, maggie, and naoko. yummy cake. we didn't go out anywhere fancy, just brought some junk food back to the apartment and threw a quick salad together.
i'm sad. i feel like i'm giving up a lot of things. as in, hey you've had your turn. time to give the bouncy ball back now. time to give someone else a turn. and yet...
i have never felt more proud of myself in my entire life.
heaven is a computer, with a dusty monitor and a chair too low to the ground. a stack of notes to type, a video game to play, a cup of hot tea or apple cider precariously balanced next to the lamp and the paper clips. there's a trip to the grocery story to take, and a shower after that while the scones are baking. there's a fight to remember, and a play to read before bed. class is in the morning. boo comes home around 11:30, after the daily show.
time to take a deep breath and a big step forward.
okay maybe a little step.
i may end up working for the university, after all.
-t
current mood:  accomplished
current music: the ballad of serenity
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| Monday, April 14th, 2008
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1:28 am - the stupidest thing i ever heard
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i mailed in my first postsecret today.
-t
current mood: accomplished
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| Saturday, April 12th, 2008
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10:30 pm - before you get old
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facebook likes to send me wedding ads.
like this one -
Wedding Restrooms
Executive mobile restrooms for your special day! Complete your outdoor venue with Royal Restrooms.
WHAT.
-t
current mood:  wtf!
current music: firey furnaces - right by conquest
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| Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
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9:03 pm - i could blow through the ceiling
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this is how much i love you:
it's seventy degrees outside on april fool's day. you've just woken up. i could tell you "brr! the temperature dropped like crazy last night! you better bundle up!"
but that would mean you would go outside with your big bomber jacket and fuzzy pants. and then come back, quite annoyed over being late to work because you have to change.
so i don't.
-t
current mood:  giggly
current music: sigur ros - hoppipolla
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| Saturday, March 29th, 2008
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2:01 am - i got some marmalade
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welcome to 2am!
let's see...
the fire at kenilworth was surreal in so many ways. the silky orange glow we could see from the window. the banging and shouting, warning us to get out. the top corner of our building in flames. the eight fire trucks that appeared within ten minutes of the call. the water from the hoses. huddling for warmth in alex's car. the hole in the building where the apartment used to be - we could see the sunrise through the missing roof. zoning out in the leasing office and talking to the red cross. facing each other in spinny office chairs, resting our legs in the other's lap. napping in the volvo. moving out everything in the span of about four hours. that wet, acrid, smoky smell. the dilapidated bathroom. the broken glass and muddy carpet. what the fuck did we really manage to recover all of our things? i am so MAD i didn't grab my camera!
alex and i are in a new apartment just down the street. and kat is gone.
kat is gone.
in a brilliant anticlimax to our mutual ignoring of one another, kat is gone. it took a goddamn apartment fire, but she's gone.
we unfortunately didn't make it to new york and fuerzabruta, but in a way i'm glad we didn't. it was more important to get settled in our new home and our belongings put away. what an awful thing it would have been to come home to. we're going to try again in late may, after graduation.
romeo et juliette opened last night. what a ball i've had with my little part, the capulet in the maroon hat who's about fifteen years younger than the rest of the men in the chorus. it's fun playing the little boy, even if i do feel a bit awkward when everyone else begins to sing. sadly, they make me take my glasses off when i'm on stage. all well and good for period dress and that sort, but it would be nice if i could actually see where the damn sword is swinging and if i could oggle the cute guy playing romeo! i never imagined it would help with nervousness, though. no butterflies to be had when you can't see the audience's faces, ne? pictures on the way, i promise.
thesis almost ate me this afternoon. i kept getting wrapped up in the absurd deadline - first draft due in two weeks, on april 9th. and the fact that we more or less spent about two months dicking around until we finally got the green light to write something. but once i got my complaining out of the way, i cranked out a decent blurb and managed to paw through some books. ten minutes of stage time out of a three hour run definately presented a good opportunity for work at the opera. one of my friends in the chorus complimented me on being a good student. heh.
i'm making my own pasta sauce tomorrow, for a study break. and maybe a trip to old navy.
-t
current mood: busy
current music: AKFG - 24 ji
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| Monday, March 10th, 2008
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11:50 pm - you turned the box sideways
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i wore two pARTy @ Towson shirts today.
-t
current music: katamari damacy - katamari on the rock
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| Friday, March 7th, 2008
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11:22 pm - thirty-six yards
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i dreamed last night i was in a video game based off of serial experiments lain. i haven't thought of lain in years. at one point these awful, sinister voices enveloped the hearing of my dream-self. it was a little scary. but then i yelled "stop it! you're only on 50 AM radio!" and i woke up.
it looks like i'll be in the baltimore opera production of romeo and juliet as an extra sword fighter for a crowd scene. first rehearsal is this wednesday. and so the great juggling act begins - center stage and these shining lives, center for the arts box office, undergraduate thesis, largo dramaturgy and program notes.
i haven't been this busy since the adding machine! the way i scamper about from place to place, i feel rather like a squirrel.
Preeeeeeeeeeeeeesenting Tracy the Amazing Squirrel and Her Unforgettable Juggling Act!
doo do dododo do do do doo do dododo do do doo!
-t
current mood: busy
current music: shadow of the colossus - lakeside
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| Wednesday, March 5th, 2008
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11:16 pm - yuhs
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THIS:
fuerzabruta is the show with the giant swimming pool suspended over the audience. i'm going to see it over spring break with my boo!
-t
current mood:  EEEEEEEE!!!!!!
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| Sunday, February 24th, 2008
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10:35 pm - someone is wrong on the internet
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yes, the mushroom is done.
-t
current mood: busy
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| Thursday, February 21st, 2008
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11:19 pm - we know everything
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i'm amazed over the subtle humor that is making itself known in early read-throughs of largo desolato. to me, the play read like a news caster, very crisp and stately. but putting all of the pauses in and really listening to what the characters have to say is an absolute riot. we had to stop every five minutes today in rehearsal as the cast burst into giggles.
i'm very proud of the work i've done on this production. naoko was very impressed not only with the casebook of doom, but also with my mini presentations on czechoslovakia and vaclav havel. i was especially pleased with my ability to come right from lighting crew, wrench still in my pocket, and immediately present on largo and the meaning of kafkaesque. dramaturgy GO!
i'm going to the "too soon?" party as the divided countries of slovakia and czech republic.
so i dove into the joy looking for recipes that use dry sherry. found a good one for sugar frosting. but after numerous sidetracks i also want to make -
hot lemon sauce
caramel frosting
fried artichoke hearts
honey cake
scones
om nom nom nom!
-t
current mood:  hungry
current music: smashing pumpkins - today
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| Saturday, February 16th, 2008
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1:17 am - rotten eggs
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i sold all of my old sailor moon manga to ukazoo books today. not a bad price: $54.72 for the majority of the series. i kept sailor moon superS, my favorite series, and it's nice to get them off of the cluttered bookshelf back home, but still...it was sad to see them go.
farewell, my friends. may you find yourselves in the hands of an eager dreamer, or a prized space on a collector's shelf.
-t
current mood:  sentimental
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| Thursday, February 14th, 2008
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11:41 pm - i need a drink of water
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he wrote me a nice love letter.
i have post-nasal drip. some of it dripped from the catwalks onto the stage. it made a dot on the dusty black floor.
i jaywalked four times today!!!
it has been a very long time since i made a mix cd. i will remedy this soon, in time for picking up rick-sensei from the airport next tuesday.
i finished the design for the wedding invitation. it has bunnies and ribbons.
these chocolate donut holes look like dog shit.
but there's no sense crying over every mistake
you just keep on trying til you run out of cake
and the science gets done
and you make a neat gun
for the people who are still alive!
-t
current mood: loopy
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| Tuesday, February 5th, 2008
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9:30 pm - kidnapping little children is good
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did you know another name for "giraffe" is "camelopard?"
dude.
this discovery came from a story on fark, to a webpage on the origin of the word giraffe, to the OED. three cheers for teh intarwebz.
-t
current mood: amused
current music: portal - still alive
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| Saturday, February 2nd, 2008
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2:04 pm - we all sailed to heaven in a little rowboat
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after a week of class, it looks like this semester will be calm and comfortable. reading many new plays for center stage, in my new routine of spending early evenings at panera with a cup of tea and maybe an apple pastry. love love love LOVE swordplay! the rapier is such a comfortable, easy weight in my hand. my long lost arm? perhaps. soon my nights and weekdays will be filled with box office events and largo desolato rehearsals. i'm sure my time will shrink even more rapidly as i start writing my thesis (on kabuki and noh), but for now it's wonderful to have so much open space for myself.
i had a real treat this past sunday - visiting the unfinished newseum in downtown washington. it's going to be absolutely amazing. i would be thrilled to intern there for the summer, or whenever! it would be a combination of all my past work experience - the hustle of the senate, the ready-at-a-minute's notice and community outreach of silverdocs, the research and presentation of dramaturgy. and they'll need help, too. the building is huge, to say nothing of all of the interactive content. there is no official job listing yet, but i have my eyes open and my fingers crossed.
so this is it, huh? the last few weeks of school.
i used to tell people that i'd be graduating soon, and that i was scared.
that's not true anymore.
-t
current mood: accomplished
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| Friday, January 25th, 2008
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12:50 pm - duty free
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things i will miss most about japan:
hot green tea in the morning
(provided by the hotels)
yukata sleeping robes
(also provided by the hotel)
group runs to convenience stores for treats and pastries
(my favorite bun: puffy pastry swirled with apple jelly)
vending machines
(a drink whenever i wanted, hot or cold)
the trains and subways
(smooth, clean, well lit, everywhere)
dotonbori, shibuya, sanjo
(the flash and spectacle of osaka and tokyo)
throwing coins into the wooden boxes, ringing, the bell, and saying a prayer at a shrine
(always for peace)
crepe ojisan and tako yaki stands
(delicious delicious delicious)
my little handful of japanese, bowing to cars to let you go
(sumimasen!!)
shuko-san's little hat and friendly smile
(ji-san)
the kindness and generosity of the artists and performers
(remember the time when we got like 8000 presents from shifu-sensei? tea, candy, cookies, scarves?! wah!)
fillet o'ebi
(lawl mcdonald's lawl)
the orange-red of the shinto tori against grey stone and green pine
(the colors of a shrine)
the upward road to kiyomizu
(ceramics, souvenirs, the little postcard artist, fried things on a stick)
the free hugs outside of shibuya station
(a line of giggling 20 somethings)
the cool-guy japanese hairdos
(spiky, artfully tussled bedhead)
C.C LEMON!
(50 lemons in every can)
the little cafe at the takarazuka theater
(dainty little desserts and chattering women)
that time i got a meal at the hotel restaurant in kyoto and they gave me a FORK and it was WEIRD
(wtf)
poofy european coffee shops and cafes
(mr. donut, pronto, that one in nara...started with a d)
the exquisite meals we shared with the monks at the temples
(otoki, surprise dinner in zojoji)
silly, inane japanese television shows on the hotel tv
(the best 3, children's programming)
early morning in nara
(quiet and gray)
i'll be back someday.
-t
current mood: happy
current music: we <3 katamari: houston
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| Tuesday, January 1st, 2008
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6:46 pm - to new beginnings
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They were there
In the sky
And I believed in miracles.
I didn't have any choice.
-t
current mood:  curious
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| Friday, December 28th, 2007
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11:01 am - let me out at three AM
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*peep*
you know, i forgot it was the end of the year for awhile. i was so engrossed in end of the year projects and classes that it took npr's top news stories of 2007 to remind me. it makes sense, i suppose. i haven't been watching tv in lieu of the writer's strike, and took no trips to the mall for gifts.
i did have my own little christmas tree, decorated with ornaments mostly made out of clay. i'm most proud of the pair of angel wings with silver glitter. the wings are on two separate hooks, so an angel can slip between and borrow them if she (or he) wants to.
friends and family were kind enough to give me lots of cooking-related gifts this year. like the joy of cooking cookbook! my grandmother had the original joy from 1934, and now i have the new 75th anniversary edition. first on the list is pasta sauce and miso soup. and then something fancy for the bamboo steamer.
had a brief, rewarding gig at center stage for their production of rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead. just when i was worried about not having anything to work on, gavin arrived and i was busy as a bee. new entry in nerdiest things i've ever done: lug three different versions of hamlet around through kinko's in a bag that said "STUDY ABROAD IZ AWESOME" or something to that effect. i'm looking forward to working with gavin more in the spring, when i start my official two credit apprenticeship.
time to enjoy a few days off before rushing up to college park for pre-departure japan classes. i'm going to present on tea ceremony and noh.
wishing for snow.
there is only stupid tea in this house.
lost season 4 plz.
get out of my bed, auggie.
please excuse me for going before you.
shochu.
-t
current mood: content
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| Tuesday, December 11th, 2007
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8:06 pm - here's the earth
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i just stabbed myself with a christmas tree ornament.
it was a pointy yellow star that slipped out of my hands. i jerked forward, where it caught between my arm and my tummy. the pointy bits left two little welts.
what a perfect darwin award that would make!
"involuntary impalement after woman catches star ornament with stomach."
i can see it on fark now.
-t
current mood: amused
current music: good eats theme
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| Thursday, December 6th, 2007
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4:56 pm - hello my name is antonin artaud
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Human History
Alan Charles Kors
George H. Walker Endowed Term Professor of History
* First, tribes: tough life.
* The defaults beyond the intimate tribe were violence, aversion to difference, and slavery. Superstition: everywhere.
* Culture overcomes them partially.
* Rainfall agriculture, which allows loners.
* Irrigation agriculture, which favors community.
* Division of labor plus exchange in trade bring mutual cooperation, even outside the tribe.
* The impulse is always there, though: "Kill or enslave the outsider."
* Gradual science from Athens' compact with reason.
* Division of labor, trade, the mastery of knowledge, plus time brought surplus, sometimes a peaceful extended order and, rules diversely evolved and, the cooperation of strangers - always warring against the fierce defaults of tribalism, violence, and ignorance.
* No one who teaches you knows what will happen
-t
current mood: amused
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| Wednesday, December 5th, 2007
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12:25 pm - repeal day? yay!
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happy end of prohibition everyone!
-t
current mood: chipper
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